Game Review: Call of Juarez II: Bound in Blood

Howdy partner! heheheheheh howdy indeed! I wuz a jobless cunt for quite a while now so I ended up sendin' resume's thru email and of course gaming. I wuz browsing thousands of game torrents on the internet (coz I can't even afford a pack of smokes! sheesh!) and i found this on thepiratebay.org. Pretty cool game. graphics are decent. but the bodies don't have bullet holes once you hit em dead. But I still give it a 7/10 rating anyday. its a really fun and addicting game. You'd be either playing Ray, a dual-pistol shootin, dynamite throwin', Gatling gun carrying hoodlum or his brother Thomas who can jump higher, use a rope, shoot arrows and throw knives. rifles and pistols are shared weapons, but duality goes to Ray. The Maps are huge but there are onscreen markers that you can follow for going into the objective. It's so realistic that you really can ride the map a long time and die by falling off a gorge! ahahaha. yep. i am an idiot and i tried it in the game! aside from the story line, you can also go on side missions w/c you can get money. The missions vary from gun-for hire type to killing a whole gang of outlaws. One unique feature of the game that I'd love to stress is the shootout wherein you get to be in a gun duel! you also get to ride a horse and have it walk or sprint w/c completes the cow boy feel. haha! its too complex for words so check the game out! no kidding. for FPS lovers like me, this is worth your time.


Playing as Thomas, providing Ray w/ covering fire
focus mode w/c makes you aim w/ your rifle better (goes for pistols too)
the showdown mode
dual sawed off shotguns.

Everyday is Family Sunday

Just the other day, my mom was out the hospital. A lot of friends and family called in to make sure that they heard the news right.

I then noticed what happened. Mom out of retirement, dad is almost at flexi-time when it goes to work, me and my brother taking a breather from work ( we're bums right now if that's what you prefer) , makes me realize that these are rare moments where we get to spend a whole lotta time just being w/ each other. like a very long, extended Sunday.

We started that day by eating breakfast together, just talking. I even had a rare occasion of hearing my dad crack a joke that made us both laugh(this really is weird given we don't really coexist that harmoniously often). What follows was a long lazy day. my brother and mom were at the room watching TV. I was in the living room reading " Breaking Dawn" all day, smoking while I'm at it. Dad is watching TV in the living room too.

There was nothing but just casual chit-chat, jokes, coziness in between. I was constantly checking whether this was a dream or not but it wasn't. And that made me happy to know that we are really in it. *Sigh*. I'm not really a materialistic person. moments like these just wanna make my heart explode out of sheer joy. well, I gotta get back to 'em. ciao!

beaten down bad, bleedin like hell...

I really wonder if there would ever be a time that i would settle. Like even in the span of a day, I won't worry about anything or any one. Just like way back when I was a kid. I would only think of excuses that my dad won't let me take my afternoon nap so i could just play around with friends. Simple, peaceful, fun.
The past months were like hell for me. I mean I don't hurt that much but this was the anniversary of my "Hell days on Earth months". It was the biggest, longest. mind-twitching charade I ever had. Coz back then, just when I thought I had everything all figured out, I was wrong. Dead Wrong. but back then it was on my lovelife. (kinda showbiz sounding but its better to be simpler *wink*).
But now, I'm facing graver threats to sanity. just now, as I'm typing this blog, mom's in the hospital w/ a case of UTI. She went to Surigao w/ my brother then to Samar with me. Whenever she goes traveling, she always forgets to rehydrate w/ water and settles for softdrinks instead. so the story goes. I haven't visited her yet coz I'm afraid I'd cry my eyes off. She is my strength. seein' her like that would just tear my heart appart.
Next off, i really am getting beat from my jobhunt. i really want a dad-type boring desk job that I can settle in. but Apparently, the only thing that's available are agent positions in call centers. Frankly, I'm almost losing hope. *sigh* I never wanna go back to the job that almost cost me my life.
Well there goes another round in life, a lot more to go, so I gotta keep fighting. as long as Hazel Eyez got my back, I can take on anything in my path. bring it on!

Young and Hopeless... I Mean Jobless.

It's been 3 months since i last had work. I wasn't loittering around wastin' my time. I was really looking for a job that I can settle in for eternity. I really mean this literally. Coz as far as I recall, I never had a job that I liked that I chose to stay. I've been in and out of call centers, of hospitals for getting sick due to the night shift, but hey, I never complained. having its perks also means you got to be beaten to a bloody pulp. What's more troublesome is that I can't seem to shake my mom off my business. I love her and all but cliche as it may sound, I really wanted to scream on top of my lungs and say I'm not a kid anymore. That I, as individual require my own personal space.

I am way off the mark for the age of majority, I've never had a decision in life that I regret. I think things over carefully. I hate efforts that are half baked. i understand that maybe, just maybe since mom just got into retirement, she may have insecurities. I wish she would just listen to my reasons and see for herself that I am full of insecurities too. Why the hell would I love being a bum? I know I got obligations, I know I have to help out. But can't they just give me a break? I'm doin' my best in applying for "normal" jobs. I'm waiting for them to call so we can sign a damn contract. I don't wanna work a nocturne forever. I don't live to work. I work to live.

What's the point of having good pay if you just waste it on meds and hospital bills? This time, I won't ever settle for anything less than what I deserve.

This blog has helped me out a lot in expressing myself. If not for this, I would've gone mad a long, long, long time ago. peace out.

Ho-Hum

Its been a while since i last posted some thoughts on here. maybe its healthy if i make it a daily habit huh? hehehehe. i'd just like to let y'all know that one of my bestfriends died just 2 days ago. She really was so sweet and thoughtful and always there for me.

She clobbered me funny when I'm bored, sang to me the latest songs and even helped me out with tons of paperwork way back high school, until making resumes. Yes, my dear friends, Cely, my Celeron 900 MHz powered computer tower breathed her last. In come Damian the Intel Core 2 duo processor tower. hehehehe. i'd just start from here and continue upgrading until i build a monster. hehehehehe. ciao!

Missing You

I really didn't count the days since you went home to your folks but i'm sure as hell i miss you so damn much. I've gotten so used to bein around you most of the time that I feel like its so important...like breathing.

Now I have the first dose of loneliness, it really tears me apart. I know you'd be back but I miss you. I really do.

P.S. I know you're gonna be here tom. I just wrote this blog to let my feelings out into the open. wehehehehehe. miss ya muffin!

When Human Magic Marker is Filled w/ Ink Again

I really like that phrase by one of my fave artists. His name Is Brandon Boyd of the band incubus. Coz it sort of promotes the idea of a higher being that's in touch w/ your soul and gives you creativity to write things down.

Anyway, as you may have noticed, there is a drop in the times that I make posts to my blog. The reason is simple, I lost inspiration. Well, now I got smacked into oblivion w/ a haunting fact that I did that to myself for no apparent reason. It took a great deal of help from my girl (w/out her noticing the drop in my hunger for creativity) to get me to write again. so here I am.

There's alot goin' on lately like me resignin' from my job ( customer service really ain't my thing.), and the best part of all, I have a relationship that goes deeper and deeper each day. It just ain't materialistic, nor is it sexually driven, nor its just for companionship. Its just that we really love each other and just bein around each other makes us happy.

Everyday, when I wake up, I'm not the grouch anymore. I choose to smile. And just be happy. I wanna enjoy even life's simple pleasures, like sharing a laugh, crying at a good movie ( i don't freakin' care what you say, I will not lie about what I feel EVER.). And all these things, I owe to Hannah. The song lyrics really are true. "I never know I was lookin for love until I found you." Love you gorgeous! As for Y'all, you'd be hearing from me more. until next time.