The girl I find who wants to talk about quantum theory in a bar is the one I want to marry

Funny huh? But really, I find it logical. This was quoted by Brandon Boyd in Rollingstone magazine as he was asked about his ideal soulmate. I mean, seriously though, I had lots and lots of relationships in the past. Ranging From a day, a week, a month, a year, way longer than 3 years, name it I got it. Relationships that exist just for the sex, for pleasure, for the company, the sweet thoughts, and the sex...did i mention SEX already? Hahahahaha. Anyway, of all the relationships, I have never had one that's so open, honest and trusting. I mean I got open relationships, honest relationships, trusting relationships but never a relationship w/ all 3 elements combined.

On the honesty part though, I,d rather have a gurl that tells me the truth straight to my face and pounds me face first to the ground than be w/ someone who pretends to care and jumbs on the next SOB that they find cute. JUST FOR THE FREAKING SAKE OF TEA AND SYMPATHY. That's just so nuts.

Come to think of it, I really haven't met a girl that I'm attracted to that can keep up w/ the way I think.One who openly discusses topics out of the blue, delivers it and grabs your attention and is very open to your opinions. One who's easy to share a laugh with. Witty, charming, outgoing and very trust-worthy. I do have a lot of friends of the opposite sex w/ these qualities but I see them ONLY as sisters. Nothin' more, nothin' less.

If the world is just so full of individuality and flooded w/ uniqueness, isn't anyone out there who can just be different from me but share these qualities? As I rethink about the reasons for the failures of the past, it has always been the lack of communication. Some girls shut their doors and windows down, some are real hot but are too dumb, some are too damn crazy and senseless. If I could wish for just 1 gift for Christmas, Man, this would definitely be it: "Lord, give me a girl as stated above. Pretty please?" Hehehehe. I know one day we'd cross paths. I just hope I'd be able to spend time with that girl. Have a piece of her mind, share thoughts, and better yet, share the same dreams...

In Memory of a Dear friend

It's just so sad to lose a friend. Especially one you had confided with. Someone you shared your pain with. What's ironic is that she's not even human. The last time I wuz sad like this was way back when my mom gave my dog Peanut away. I found it real hard to let go, and to conquer the pain that it brought me as we parted ways.

And now another ounce of pain awaits. My mom gave away the rabbit that I cared so much for. *Sigh*. Now I'm actually thinkin' what's in me that each and every time I hold someone or something dear, it gets robbed from me. Just like that. this sucks.

Spontaneous Human Combustion

Sounds weird huh? But yes, it does exist. It's one of the many trivial things that science hasn't fully broken down yet. Here's Brandon Boyd's explanation of the song lyrics in "Pardon Me": "I was in a bookstore, browsing through an old Life magazine, when I saw a picture of what the article called spontaneous human combustion. There were an old guy's legs and shoes, perfectly intact...then, right around his knee area, was just a pile of charred ashes. I was going through some turmoil in my life, both good and bad, and the image struck a chord, so...I wrote a song about it."

It really does fascinate me how the human flesh spontaneously bursts into flames. What triggers this phenomena? Is it an outburst of rage? An uncontrolled rampage of psycho-emotional reaction? Or is it a way of hell just claiming its minions? Honestly, I don't have a clue.

The accounts of witnesses seeing the phenomena states that as terrifying as it may be, none of the subjects even screamed or tried to roll over the ground. If that were the case, it could possibly mean that there was no pain at all. I can't imagine such a sweet painless death right? you don't feel a thing. A very earthly element, engulfs your physical plane and reducing you to ashes in seconds. The sight is horrifying, yet the sweet rewards are real. When you're in ashes, the wind blows you away, then you become one w/ the earth. Like going home to where you belong. You are buried like a king, or more than that. for a king is made to lie in a boat and the boat is then burned. While if you spontaneously combust, the earth bids you to go home, letting you cross into the ethereal plane so much more than kings could ever do.....