It's quite awhile since I last wrote here. The only place and time that I truly feel like myself is when I am in the act of writing. The freedom of speech and expression is one of the privileges of a democratic state that seems to be a luxury for anyone these days ( I think I'm only speaking for myself in this context).
It's been a year and 4 months since I last held a job. I gave up being a nocturne being and decided to rejoin the world, try a different industry where people work in normal office hours and enjoy holidays. When I was still in the call center, I thought these days are gonna be heaven. Well, I've had a blast but the job-hunt was hell. The main problem that I had to face just like after being incarcerated is the fact that i have to fit into the norm again, sleep patters and all. I'm waiting to be employed in a government agency starting July 1. But before that I've been through a trail of exams, interviews and printed a bundle of resumes and application letters so many that my printer went dry...(may the cartridges rest in peace)
These were the lowest point in my life and it was also the best. It was the lowest in the sense that I am financially incapacitated, I feel so helpless against the bills and rent that my mom's pension is barely getting us out of. I can say the best coz unlike the other time hat I was down and out, someone never left my side, never budged, never cared for what people say. Thanks a bunch Hannah. I love you with all that I am.
You may be really confused about the relation of this article to that of the title. It's simple. This is an expression of my stand to the motherfuckers who's trying to ruin this relationship. That's right motherfuckers! This is for you! I've been silent, I've been polite and I've been nice to all y'all. If you think that I would back down from this, I won't. If in the past i was that lenient, I am a renewed man. I will defend my keep. I will defend the rock that I have built my dreams on. I've bled crimson and bluejust to make the relationship get this far and I will not back down when it comes to defending it.
I appreciate the theatrics, the resourcefulness of going as far as to talking with her parents. But mind you assholes, you ain't scaring nobody. A word of advice, if you value your relationships with other people, if you value your family, you better quit it. I will not rest until I have shamed you amongst your peers, your family and the ones that you sick sons of bitches love. I loathe the very fact that you exist. You insignificant scoundrels who pick on people who never done you wrong just so that you can prove you are worthy of existence.. Eat shit you fucking lousy, perverted bastard! Grow the fuck up! Get a life! Stop ruining other people.
One of these days, I'd know who you are. When that day comes, I hope you said your goodbyes. I will hunt you down bitches! I will slut your fucking throats in front of the whores you call your mothers. I will make these whores realize that instead of giving birth to you, they should have in fact, made your pussy-of-a-father wear a condom. Damn, you're so ugly the condom company should write yo' mommas yearly to apologize for a faulty product.
